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part of me still cries out that i shouldn’t eat this or that i need to do more exercise, because for so long, yeah, it was true. i was out of shape, i ate poorly ( oh so many “diet"foods), i didn’t really do any formal exercise.
Day 1 of C25k
score three for consistency.
reflection
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gonna get back into Egyptology.
ramblings while listening to winners and boozers
there parts of me that desire to do unsafe stuff. i don’t know. i watch trans people talking about how they feel like they’re in the wrong body, and i wonder if that feeling can span more than just gender. but what if that desire contradicts
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Life update So I ate a shit ton of food today and no exercise and my head is feeling a little bit conflicting because argh. Like I would make a perf. Feedee because I’m hungry half an hour later. But I can’t do that right now. I’m not free, I’m
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give me some time, and just a little bit of wine
i wish the thunder in me would crash and suddenly the words i need to write would be right.
not quite sure how i feel about this. so i just pooped and i was curious how much i weighed and stuff and it was higher than i expected. and i haven’t been eating really healthy recently, at least not the last few days and i think i have gained
seriously don't read please. just venting.
i am done
i just want to love and eat and fuck. boyfriend, did i dream of you last night:) how you hurt yourself sitting on the couch i’ll never know, but i can’t exactly control my dreams. i’m just happy that you were there and for once, i
I want to burn And fight And run And scream And be happy, confident Accepting I want to be able to have more faith in god instead of my prideful self, I don’t like needing others or help, but I do need them But my pride My damn pride… Hey god, you
to kill me, keep me still, hold me cold stop me before i change again every few seconds i learn, create, morph, change and i, like a fire need fuel there is no such thing as enough. shiver my river to kill me, keep me still replace my fuel with clutter
i’m just so mad at myself. for eating crap. it made me feel bad, it put me in a bad mood, and i’m mad that i can’t seem to give up sugar. i’m fucking addicted and i’m afraid of what will come from this. i used to be able
just wanted to say that i am happy, eating oatmeal, and enjoying my first day off in a week. my mind is still a little vicious shit sometimes but nothing has happened outside of that in a bad way. i have been living at work and i’m tired though
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Im just tired, thats all. Tired of all this for today. I have a math test thursday, im at the farmers market on wednesday, but at the same time, i could go to this free econ lecture for three extra points on my econ final, but i just got a standing place
i also wanted to talk about some old journal entries. wow. i don’t know where all that dark shit came from. i’m so much happier now. i was just really… not in a good place i guess. i still feel like the tree hitting the house was the
damnit my head is a vicious little shit sometimes. i really wish i hadn’t read all my old journals because it got that crap back in my head. i don’t feel like i can trust myself. i just want to sleep and forget about today. it was a great
hot damn.
so i need to go the crap to bed now, but i still feel like talking about today. slept GREAT! had time for a lovely, luxuriant breakfast of a veggie and egg scramble with avocado toast on the side. :). easy classes. light day. i always feel better after
Okay, so i got my test results for the fitness test. A lot of things went up like body fat, weigjt, blood pressure, but so did bicep strength ( up 3 pounds) and back flexibility (up another 9 centimeters). I know thar weight is skewed cause it’s
christmas decoration tally :36
So this morning was absolutely crappy. I was crying for no goddamn reason and trying to clear my head by going through with it and i was behind the church, on the swingset, trying to figure out why i was crying, remembering all the clues that i might
oven hot homebaked Ginger cookies and christmas radio on pandora.
lol, life
So i was pissed at myself yesterday because i planned a beast workout, but i didnt do all of it. I guess i overestimated myself. My whole back is wonderfully sore. Trx is today, and then it’s break for thanksgiving. I am planning a home body weight
so friggin sore though :)
I dream of an evil place, my own utopia, read more because long where everyone understands the crop circles in my brain. These aliens are too well known. Since before I could remember their absence, they have been there. And the circles are always the
wrongwrongwrongwrongyouknowbetter, but… but why am i? i feel out of control. i feel like i’m a little bit afraid of what i’m going to do to myself in the next month. i want to enjoy christmas, but i am looking forward to a new start.
where do these tendons connect? how does this skin not burst how does all of this work together when my head feels miles wide. i’m miles apart from myself. always at these fucking crossroads. and i’m afraid to choose because i might
So, im tired. I have a headache. Im a little lonely for beau. I need to sleep, but i dont want to. Give me a good reason … church and even moar family time. I just want to hang out with my friends. Hell, i wish we could all be roommates in college.
so i woke up early this morning. i heard my mother’s alarm. i stayed under the covers for a little while, but when i was ready, i got up. it was a very good morning. i made pancakes ( with a splash of eggnog). and i woke up in the Christmas Spirit.
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Well that could have hone better. I don’t think i did half of what i planned :(. This basically tells me to go the crap to bed on time
trying to cut back on sugar. even logged today on myfitnesspal. dried mango has a shit ton of sugar, but still better for me that candy-canes. i just couldn’t remember a day without sugar. i used to do it all the time, but that crashed. i want to
i have an essay due in 14 hours but
somehow, i've come full circle back to the fitblrs and i'm ready to try this again.
10 minute PEANUT BUTTER GRANOLA
slept in, lazy morning :) but it must end :(
some days you just get really lonely for friends. when you see them, you miss them even more. i saw a bunch of old friends today, and spent some good time or had a good text conversation. but i still feel lonely. we all hugged, everyone was jealous of
3.66 hours until final.
when you miss someone you love and you see them again for the first time in months, you realize that you forgot that you have an addiction and like any addiction, just once is never enough. no amount of time with him is ever enough. i hate how many times
EOCT IS DONE ( personal recollection of what needs to be done)
damn
bring me light bring me sun i can’t stand all of this night bring out the sun that i love make it warm make it glow the day it is too short my head is still in shock every time the sunlight disappears at five and what happened to the sunrise in
saw a post about nani from lilo and stitch and it made me think.
just watched the hunchback of notre dame for the first time ever.
so many things i ought to do but really don’t care today. i’m apathetic and i kinda hate it but i’m also just bored and lonely. all my friends are in class, i want to go christmas shopping and i should probably at least go for a walk
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