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when i have nothing to do, i get way to introspective.
self therapy
I'm a bit confusing
staying up to late,just fucking with my head. God I love him, I don’t want to scare him, I just want to make sure that he’s happy. I don’t want to be his mother. I want to be there for him. But I’m not even there for me. Because
today in reflection
just to clarify, i may have recently posted about somethings in the feederism tag, lease know that i have no intention in pursuing this, i was venting, a kind of personal therapy, i used the tags so that people with tumblr saviors wouldn’t have
two truths and a lie: family rules version
self acceptance
i taught my grandmother the meaning of DFTBA
guess which bucket list item i crossed off today?ROCK CLIMBING!!!! like a MOFO BADASS
fucking crossroads
hows life
journaling. also body finctions
im usually a very rational person. usually. but certain times i just lose it. for no apparent reason. and like food. i get so indecisive sometimes. like don’t eat that, it’s not healthy. and the other side of me is like but don’t go
Burning bright
FEELING AWESOME FOR JUST NOW INPUTTING EVERY SINGLE CLASS I'M TAKING INTO MY PHONE SO NOW I HAVE A 15 MINUTE REMINDER THAT I NEED TO GET TO CLASS SOON. LIKE WOW I AM SO PLEASED WITH MYSELF FOR BEING SO MATURE. MAATURE PERSON SHOULD PROBABLY STOP USING
i don’t feel okay. i keep trying to reach out to people but then they don’t reciprocate sometimes and i feel like a scared rabbit and i’m mad at myself for not being able to do a fucking push up and for eating a ton of eggs and for not
i don’t know what to do. just trying to get ideas out of my head so that i’ll maybe actually get some work done. maybe. no that’s a lie, i know what to do, i’m just too fucking lazy. all i fucking do is read about health and
back on the bandwagon.
reflection on this morning's workout
okay. so today ended a lot better. went on a long walk. like two hours all over campus. then realized how desperately i need new shoes for exercising because my boots killed me and sold my soles to Satan’s flames. but yeah. the walk really improved
i dont want to sleep because i'll just think about this crap all night and it's fucking addictive and i cant stop...
so today was my first day of college.
So I got a shit ton of food this weekend because of my birthday and yeah, mom spoils me. I’m really surprised that I’m not freaking out over how much food I are today. I even ate ketchup, with fries at lunch. I don’t remember the last
first day using my health class pedometer.
That is the most sexist thing I've ever heard.
so fracking tired. so i’m scheduling all the homework i got today to be done between my classes tomorrow i love college. and English prof. WHY SO MUCH FRACKING HOMEWORK. i don’t fucking care about rhetorical device and shit right now. and
ellieqoulding: So all the time on this website I see how it’s acceptable to post pictures in bikinis so it should be acceptable to post pictures in bras. My logic is if it’s acceptable for skinny guys to parade around in underwear, fat guys should
why are all the health blogs mostly weightloss/thinspo in a sportsbra?
update
i need to plan better next time. woke up late, had no plans, and basically did a few bodyweight exercises but not a workout. and cue the apathy that gets me through the day. how did i sleep in till 7 though? my alarm goes off at 6:20. i will attend the
oh, and 11003 steps today. and a cold. and yeah, teenage angst but also scheduled 3 personal training sessions…
CLIMB
i either want to cuddle or fuck
there’s a lot i need to do, like look for a job and read my textbooks, but i really don’t want to. and my mind is changing weirdly and i’m not feeling very comfortable with my head tonight. because so many things. and i feel like im
i found my happy thought
i am fucking done with my parents
rambling i just read about how a girl came out to her parents about weight gain. it made me realize that soon keeping my sexuality a secret won’t even matter. it made me realize that my biggest issue is myself. the fact that right now, i want to
so i went to the gym today...
i wonder...
didn’t run as much. two 30 second sprints going uphill on the dirt trail. it’s a lot harder than it looks when i see others doing it. i actually sat down on a rock for almost a minutes just a few hundred yards from the top and walked the rest,
first PT training session
The Addams Family Musical OBC Chicago/Broadway Mix (by kRodAddams) i love this way too much
I just feel sad and tiredMidterm tomorrow. Haven’t studied. Just so done with school this week. Slipping a bit right now mentally. Escapist. Needing little time.
So health fair today…not great results. Super out of shape, borderline obese, creepy cardio…And running into vet fit co-worker didn’t help. The recommendations i already know to lose weight. Granted it was with jeans and does. Just
I swear staying up late is the closest I get to high. I feel like I’m wrecking myself tho. Nothing feels real. Like how cut off I feel from the world. Outside these walls is completely static. It’s times like this I can almost feel a hand
Trying a half decaf coffee this morning…
Holy fuck having sex three times in one day! Holy fuck! And we’re planning the proposal for Christmas. He’s sure. And I love him so much!
Putting off studying till literally the last minute. I feel so wasted. I feel exhausted because it’s 2am. I miss him. I can’t believe I’m actually able to talk sex with my mom. Not in depth but in that I’m of an age to make my
On the bright side. I’m at a point where my depression has significantly receded. I’m no longer indifferent about staying alive which is progress but also means I have to reassess what matters to me in life. Do I think this is just because
Apparently because my blog is NSFW I cant search my own tagsI’m just trying to use tags to find old pics
Suck how if you struggle to cope and function, but can technically achieve it despite struggling, it’s so hard to get help. I want to get tested for adhd and get therapy but it’s hard. I have the good job with benefits and pto, but I feel
Look I love bullet journals, they’re fun and full of so much potential. But I have given up on making to do lists. They just depress me and remind me of all I didnt do. Now I have no clue what I should do but i dont feel guilt.
Lol
been a while since i really wrote on here. used to do it a lot more when i had a phone with a slide out keyboard so i got a 20$ bluetyooth keyboard to see if i can get back into the habit again. its a bit awkward, and it is not intuitive yet.its a lot
The internal jukebox is absolutely STUCK on “I lost my heart to a starship trooper”How is my brain still finding dopamine in this song. I’m not even enjoying it anymore, it’s just on replay as a stim.
