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just got an email from the college. i think i just made deans list… o.0
so fucking horny. wtf
kicked ass in the gym. :) job interview in T minus 35 minutes. :) now to fix my hair and apply concealer :(
dear God, please
i love not having class on fridays :)
I’m at the point where all gym clothes are pjs, but not all pjs are gym clothes…
gym closes in two hours, thirty minutes. is there time for a nap? but i also want to be home to help mom with the soup before five. and i have no plan for the gym yet. also went out job hunting and all the leads are to apply online so there’s the
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so much to fucking do and so much running through my head. aside from the usual body issues. the sermon yesterday said to trust God, submit to him daily. they shared a story from one of the musicians and how he cried for hours because he wasn’t
that moment when at 9:50 pm, you realize that your 8am class required you to read 30 pages and write a mini-essay over the last four days…
i don't know how many of you play pottermore, but i just found a prawn flavored bean and now i really want to try that.
my dash did a thing
when you have to submit a unique fact to the teacher
sorry i’m just such a fucking nutjob that difficulty appling to fucking dunkin donuts brings me to tears.
just found out that my dad, who is in NC< isn't home from ashville yet
SNOW DAY2 plans
i went back and read an older writing of mine from 2012. a world away now. it described in minute detail what i ate, how i learned that i should eat fewer processed foods, and how i found tumblr. i skimped on that because i think i was still scared of
I keep remembering Regrets and fears and secrets And i wish That crashing my skull Would be as beneficial As my instict tells me.
Still procrastinating on my engish rough draft
O god i don't know
damn it
just finished my rough draft
good god i’m tired. i had to finish my rough draft last night ( or at least some semblance of one) and i’m leaving early to print it out since my home printer is having issues. i might take a nap before i go to the gym. only 2 classes today,
Crap i dont want a cold. So far just frequent sneezing and a drippy nose. No sore throat though which is usually the tell tale in tbe family.
i seriously need to get a grip on my eating. i’m just eating a lot of crap and cake and seriously, i am regressing back to like 8th grade. i need to cut the sugar addiction. i don’t have to count. i just need to get to a point where i’m
Slept in till 7am, but still tired because i stupidly stayed up to 11:20pm. Just made eggs for my mother and me. Time to go get swole :)!!!
Just had a good long talk with my mother. :) just about this and that. Also had an interview today. Probably not a lot of hours. Really hope i get the job and had a good time with the hiring manager. Even if i don’t get the job, it was a better
So tired. Mother is taking full advantage of the fact that it’s.just us and is talking with me late into the night. Which isn’t bad, but I’m just really tired. This has happened every night for the last three nights.
So tired rn. On the couch but i need to stand up and walk or fall down and crawl to my room, take out ny contacts, turn on nightvale podcast #5 and crash. Instead I’m too tired to care to nove rn (thumbs and eye balls aside) so I’m hust kinda
So govt. where readings will finally be assigned, then study for math until 10:00 where i have a microfit test scheduled (aka, lets see just how much I’ve let myself go. Also the freshman 15 isn’t completely fake. But i don’t blame
Just suddenly feeling shitty. Thinking about all the shit i eat and how i can’t, i just can’t. I can’t enjoy it. I shouldn’t like to rub my soft little belly or stuff myself. I shouldn’t. Last night brought up how God doesn’t make mistakes.
Really don’t want to go out job hunting, but i already put it off an hour… probs gonna do some follow ups. Also am actually counting. Trying keep around maintenence and once i can do that start cutting back because i would very much like
i am just really depressed right now. i feel like i’m letting the whole “ no job thing get to me and now i’m crying. i don’t know shit i dont know shit i dont know shit. i can’t sell crap i’m good. i’m just
Well shit, no school tomorrow. Gym is closed. No sunshine. God this is depressing…
Rome wasn't built in a day.
I need to write more. I have so many ideas that could be good. Not just these profane debreifs that get me through the day. An essay is an attempt, a try. I need to do it more. Like my essay due thursday… Yep. The same one i finished th e rough
Hunkering down for another GA storm. Looks like my essay is still due Thursday. No snow here yet, but it is not far. Two storms in two weeks. Your move Mr. Gore
Just watched Paranorman and i highly recommend. Also enjoyed breakfast cookies. I need to clean my room and do my homework, but all i want to do is cook, eat, and watch more kids movies. Preferably another one involving drop-kicking a zombie’s head
i do not understand people who do not love brussel sprouts. even frozen and microwaves, so good and they have a kinda sweet undertaste
“Snow day”
just watched the lorax and i’m asking the tumblr comunity to do a song mash up of “let it go” and “let it grow”. please do this. yes.
So far, so good. Actually worked out and put away my laundry. Ill revise my essay tonight. Rn, I’m watching a documentary on Lee and Grant. I also correctly guessed that the narrator was Johnathan Frake. :)
outside my window, the sun is making the snow melt
should have probably gone to bed two hours ago. i’ve been sitting here for at least 3? 4? many masterposts of masterposts are the funnest shit out there. i get so much crap to do and great ideas. did you fucking see the 15 pound snickers bar? well,
So as i went to bed at midnight and i woke up now… no coffee yet so my head is fuzzy. The gym opens at 10am but i can’t go till 12pm. Gonna focus on push ups. Also got my grandma coming today at 11. Happy valentines day. I love everysingle
holy crap, 180 people like my reblogs. don’t know why but thank you. and i’m feeling much better about myself today. i kinda just gave up on counting calories. i don’t think it’s possible for me to go back to that now. i keep on
watching field of dreams with the fam. much baseball, such american. wow,
Fianally home. Youth in a few hours. :) invited le beau. Fingers crossed but i know it’s a long shot. Anyways just a bit weary rn. Back to school tomorrow. Hopefully no more interuptions :). Back in my gym, back in my groove. Basically I’m
I fucking love food :)
Tmi warning Why do people always need me when I’m naked and on the toilet? Seriously, this isn’t a coincidence, but a.repeated offense. Argh
mom said we can do the route tonight, i still feel dissapointed in myself. i still feel like crying. but i’m better now
this has been an emotional day: ecstatic in the sunshine, meltdown over bad directions, disagreement with mom, lots of tears. lots of prayer and praise and probably very self-centered– I was happy, Then sad, then mad because i didn’t get
tired. just tired from yesterday. so my motto for the day is if i can hear you, the music isn’t loud enough. if i can hear myself think,, the music is not loud enough coffee
finally got back in the gym. home baby.
Am i the only one who eats an entire bag of frozen Brussels sprouts at once?
not sure how i feel. kinda a blah day. good sunshine, stepdad came home, good day at the gym. not bad, not ecstatic. as usual, don’t want to go to bed. readmore b/c rambly and probably nothing new ate pretty well today, at least better than usual.
the last few hours have been good. made a good friend i think and with any luck, a good connection for the rso. also made a green smoothie. two banana, yogurt, milk, apple, clementine, and kale. not bad. a little leafy. now i need to go out job hunting.
more to chew on. insanity is doing the same thing over and over again and getting a different result. clearly i need to change the script. but how? must talk with mom after she uses me to complain about her sister and whoever is at xerox.
