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There are times that I lose myself so deeply that I doubt I ever really knew who I was to begin with. Being in my own head during these times is especially exhausting and crippling. I wanna get rid of all the clothing I own but I don’t have the money
sometimes – SOMETIMES – i see cute people in cute relationships and it makes me really miss the time when i had that myself it’s not that i’m unhappy now, but occasionally i miss knowing that there was someone who loved me more
today has been a bad day, emotionally. maybe i’m just tired because i woke up at 4 am. i took a nap, but that didn’t help. all i can think about are the things that bother me and the bad things in my head. like how most of the people i talk
My grandfather was very suddenly diagnosed with throat cancer in March after he had a sore throat for several days. He quit smoking about 25+ years ago, a few years before I was born, but he smoked for decades before that. We were all under the impression
so many new followers in the last few days! i hope y'all talk to me; i’m nice, and i like meeting new people. i would say i don’t bite, but i totally do.
This sexual harassment and sexual assault presentation at orientation is LONG AS FUCK but that’s really good and it’s super thorough in going over what everything is and what consent is and isn’t and how to respond to someone who tells
There is something truly annoying about seeing my exes and guys I hooked up with in relationships I don’t even like them that much, which is why I broke up with them or stopped seeing them But it still annoys me
I love him so much, it truly hurts. He is the best part of my day, every day. He makes me laugh like no one else does. I feel his pain when he is hurting. We have had so many ups and downs in our year together but at the core of everything, we love each
I understand the difficulty in believing victims of abuse, even though I am a staunch feminist, when the abuser is someone important to you.Nothing about it is pretty or easily understood when emotions get involved. It’s clear, but it’s not. Like
planned parenthood played that same shit as a regular doctor. this is why i hate going.they didn’t say anything to me about my weight, but on my chart (which i saw online tonight) they put in a recommendation about talking to me about my diet.they know
I was just put in a situation where I was basically given no choice but to come out to some of my family members even though I wasn’t really ready. Turns out my brother already knew because my mom told him a while back & now he keeps on calling
okay so i havent been eating lately but tonight im stoned af and caved. lemme list tonights munchies i have consumed 2 cornbread muffins fried chicken wheat thins a wheat thin dipped in ranch chocolate chip waffles and a hotdog i have a problem
Cuddled up in bed with pizza rolls, playing Neopets, and watching Golden Girls. I am one happy puppy.
also last night at the casualties show Jake wanted a wall of death but there isnt enough room for that in the observatory so instead he requested a “small of death” I cant even
my life right now… *raps*; “uncle’s in the kitchen, cookin’ fried chicken, cat’s on the table, nothin’ rhymes with table… but he’s hissing at me. Word.”
I hate those days where I just feel so unwanted and so unappreciated, like if somthing would happen to me who would care And I know it’s wrong to think that cause it “isn’t true” but once I get put in that mindset it’s hard
I really hate being reminded that I don’t know what I want to do with my life… Like yeah I should be worried about it but I just want to live in the now. How can I be expected to make such a major life choice when I’m experiencing more
Sometimes it really gets to me how much I would have loved to work with people in my art and photography. It makes me unreasonably upset having to limit myself to dead things and architecture and nature photography. But social skills are for good people.
MaybeThe only place I belong is in compulsory care on psychiatric ward. At least people there are nice and caring. Professionally so but still. Not having free movement was seriously bad tho. I wish being alive could be a good thing although that seems
I’d do anything to have a girl resting on the sofa with e her head in my lap quietly telling about her day as my fingers play with her hair. A single candle lighting up the room. I’d need that but to much to ask isn’t it..
I often think that there’s so much more to write, to discuss. So much to test from different angles and in different cases. But wit that I’m also no more than a bag of existential crisis and emptiness. Because there everything end, darkness
I don’t like the concept of children in any way. Yet I find the possibility not to become pregnant so disturbing it alone give reason not to live. But it is what it is yes I shouldn’t compare. Yes womanhood is not than that. Bye.
Let’s just say my demons have take over everything :( I dont deserve alive this stupid shitty life anyways. I should call again and make them understand need to be in a ward and hope for the best. But it’s useless.
Finding it sad it seems like it’s not possible to read and study how to approach people and find friendship even in its shallowest form. Maybe it doesn’t matter how much I try. What if it only looks like desperation. Kind of is. But anyway.
I’ll never be able to learn enough social skills. But it’s okay I guess. I’ll just erase my dreams and ambitions in life and it’ll be alright. Kind of maybe.
Literally the only thing that changed from pre Corona is now there’s a plexiglass shield infront of the cashier in the grocery store. But that’s good I guess that life goes on just like normal. If only normal was worth living.It would have
I better become cis in next life or I don’t know what to think about existence. Being what I am is nothing but a curse. It’s disgusting.
The only way to feel the slightest bit of positive in life is by not having dreams, ambitions or standards. But it is ok I guess it’s just how life works.Best part is I’m not even being hard on myself.
Finally managed to get myself together enough to approach most of those in my region who are active on the main platforms for kink people. We’ll se where that ends. No-one haven’t bothered to reply but I try see it for what it is. I try to
If I just keep my shit together I can possibly maybe get to be involved in a project for a independent bottling company. Witch would be super awesome fun and all but its like a year away. Oh well at least someone think I’m good <3
Saturday evening is young. Doing as bad as normal on Mario kart but at least I’m doing it properly wearing cute lingerie and a plug and is one glas in on a newly opened wine bottle
I know some of my followers love the idea of never again being allowed to touch your genitals and just have that privileged taken away from you. It’s cute. But I also hate the wasted potential in doing that to a perfect body. I just want to feel
Prob just good I’m trans and borderline asexual I’d just be constantly sore and numb if i were cis and gave in to myself 🤷🏻♀️
Every time I see or hear about an event for women, I do not feel welcome.It’s not the language of the event or the people who arrange it that makes me not feel welcome. Most often it even says in the description that trans people are welcome.But
I’m not going to say that at times I lay in bed with tears slowly running down my cheeks. Not understanding what to do with myself and just longing to belong to someone to be someones good girl. But that happens more times than I’ll admit.
Weekend and once again I don’t have any plans. I just want to spend it with someone. But I’ll just edge and forget about it spending it in the mist.
Wish love was just as simple as in books. Just have some eye contact.. feel shit about it but through some magic it just happen anyways
it’s SUNDAY and i should still be in bed sleeping next to a love of my life and forgetting that today even exists………. but no
Who else is lonely over Christmas? Can’t imagine it’s only me but I really want to make something nice and fun together in spirit.Any ideas are good ideas comment or DM :)💖
but what if I fall asleep and wake up tomorrow and there’s a flower delivery by my door 🥺
Okay not to sound like a mom or something but you can’t stay in bed all day lilone.
like I know how like all of you say if you’re meant to be with someone it will work out. whether it’s next month or in five years, what’s meant to be will always be. but like what if im not even meant to be with someone lik that just makes sticking
If I forgot your name it’s not because I don’t respect you, it’s because that’s how useless I am but I will have learned it in a month or two. I don’t expect you to be ok with if you don’t want to.
If someone were in a relationship with me they probably wouldn’t get more than a cake or dinner on their birthday. But over the year they would get 87 or so other gifts I would have ordered to them because they mentioned the liked it or wanted it
Make yourself available for available people this and make yourself available for available people that. But how do you ask someone in a respectful way if they are?
amaranthdesires:amaranthdesires:Can’t have a pet? I’m about as useful and supportive as a pet anyways.. and I could make food and build a house but that’s about it and you say you’re not in love with me?!? … okMaybe should
I just wish someone would wanna go and maybe try the breakfast sandwiches at that new artisan bakery in town some day.
Well yesterday was fun and nice and all and I’ve missed roped but my knees are so fucked up im and a night sleep didn’t make any better. Hah i really starting to get to old for the nice things in life :/
I tried my “both ways ben” aka “bisexual ben” toy today and Daddy Panda put it in my ass while I struggled to ride him at the same time. It’s soooooo freaking big >_< but when he was about to cum it started to feel
i’m glad everyone wants to get to know me or “be my friend” but the place i’m the most open and honest is when i’m baring it all on cam. That’s where i’m the most “me” and if you can’t accept that then ????? My only limitation in
I hate being alone in my room at night tbh. During the day I can distract myself from my thoughts, but at night I’m just flooded with them. I start overthinking everything. It gets to the point where I’m crying and I hate myself and I want
constantcollapse: Does anyone have that really odd feeling when you’re alone in your bedroom laying down listening to sad ass music and you just realized how bored you are with life and you want to go on adventures and live and feel free but you just
I’m trying to give you space and not be clingy but I just want to freaking talk to you. why even start a conversation if you don’t want to talk. am I losing you? I’m in too deep.
Master just said something that made me think. He said, “I feel like our relationship is like a house we’ve built together but we’re waiting to move in.” We’ve been long distance since last June. We didn’t start any
my parents decided that we’d go to my brother’s house, since he and my sister-in-law are traveling, to check if the house is ok, arrange some things and take some stuff that I left there, but they wanted to go tonight and I got nervous
Lol I hit post limit 2nd day in a row like 4 hours ago but I’m back bitches 💕
I’m so mad rn. I’ve been here for a month, we’ve been back from holiday for a week and wanted to go do loads of things but it’s been miserable and raining and this is the first nice day and I’m going home in 2 hours 😡😭
Might be moving in two weeks 🙌🏼
I’ve really only been in 1 serious relationship. And I was so unhappy for so long. Even he knew but he didn’t care because he felt like he needed me for his happiness. Till’ this day it still fucks me up. I lost who I was and here today I still
Decided to have a nice chilled day watching films in my pjs 👼
