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I;m still gonna go for the fireball though!!! Its 422am and IDC that its late!! I chugged a 20oz red bull before work and its strangely hasn’t worn off yet. probably because I haven’t been drinking energy drinks lately
(at work this week on two occasions summed up)“I’m doing the best I can.” “That may be, but sometimes your best isn’t good enough. Get it done on time” Asshole. Hes been getting all pissed at me because I don’t
While I haven’t gotten out of bed yet, today seems to be a good day because I didn’t wake up with shitty thoughts about myself. Its almost always in the morning so I guess I dodged that today!
Why now? I’ve actually had a good weekend and ave been soical and out of the house and driving a lot and have been ok. Why am I so worried all of a sudden about people?
I really like nice messages. Most of the time they don’t always get posted becuse I keep them in my inbox for reading later when Im upset/ I really want to thank you all that have ever send me a nice message ;u;
I also think its notable that I was out of bed at 1130am and I’m putting away my laundry instead of leaving it in the basket
Just got back from shopping. I have energy to do stuff but it rained a couple hours ago so I can’t mow the lawn or do yard work because everything is soaking wet :(
I hurt my leg at work. I smashed it into a metal cart really hard because I was rushing.I smashed it just above my ankle on the side and its swollen and really bothering me.
My mouth still hasn’t healed from getting hit in the face with a bicycle last weekend. I still have a nasty and painful sore inside my lower lip :(
And thats the like on that post
so Im 40 minutes behind. I havent been out yet. I found a faverite stiuffed animal when I was a kid whle I was cleaning and I was vacuumining it and it smeled a bit and Im drunk and I tried to grab the fabreezee sbut I accidentally sprayed bleach on it
Jusst hat to say this is the firtst good night at work ive had in months!!!
I fucking hate nights like this. I’m fucking 26, but in my head I’m just a shitty little child that can barely do anything right. It sucks that I’m just a shitty little child IRL too though. Some mornings its like a punch in the face
While I’m thinking about stuff, A lot of times I think about just ignoring/blocking all my followers so they wouldn’t have to see my shit on their dashes. Not that any of them would notice. The only thing thats keeping me from just deleting
I will never amount to anything useful. I’m well past the chance of that happening.
I had a shitty anxiety and stress filled day. Tomorrow is not looking good either. The only confirmed thing I’m looking forward to is Pokemon XY on Saturday. I’m just going to wrap myself in blankets and try not to exist for a while and hope
Losing your Pokemon is the saddest thing ever. I’m crying over my first Pikachu’s death. Time to try to not exist for a while.
I don’t want to be an adult today. Can I go back to kindergarten and have story time and do finger paintings and have recess and play on the playground and color in coloring books and have naptime?
Hell, the fact that that post even has notes to begin with shows what a failure I am.
I hate how when I get upset I get really uncomfortable being around people online. I mean they don’t even necessarily have to actually be active, its literally the list of names/usernames that upsets me, and its like everyone is just watching me
My two biggest talents are annoying the hell out of people and upsetting them.
That was second from the bottom in my drafts. Its been there since I first started!!
I feel like Ive crashed after boosting on Redbull/NOS for a week and I haven’t had any energy drinks since like Wednesday and It feels like I’ve been chasing the dragon and stopped sudden;y and everything is kinda floaty and spacey and I think
I’ve been doing a lot of “hand flapping” again lately, like over the past 3 weeks or so? Its kinda weird that it would start up again after not really having any twitches other than pumping my legs or rocking back and forth.
Sometimes I think my entire existence has a negative impact on the world as a whole and that when bad things happen (seemingly) out of my control or to other people they’re my fault and I can even explain a compelling argument to people on why
I suck. the onk\ly dram I can think of is one wher Im hniding from stuff and \ thrying tto control my drams ans theres this old boarded uop buoilding and I wand to fix it but i keep draming about it and I kinda have it fixed uu\p but I;m not there yet
It seems like I’m always at my calmest the day after I flip out over something.
Ugh, its that time of the night when I suddenly feel worthless.
I don’t have a lot of friends because I look at groups of friends and just don’t see an opening for myself. I feel like life is one of those impossibles puzzles and I’m one of the 5 extra pieces that don’t fit anywhere and just
There was a person that was sending a package today that was incredibly rude on the phone to 2 different people, calling one of them an idiot, and hanging up on and calling back twice and complaining about forms that he didn’t fill out correctly
Hiding un the bathroom at wirk. Mild anxiety attac I k. Can’t speak words. Ca
What I really want right now are the nastiest anon messages that anyone could ever send. all I want is for people to say mean things to me.
Its great when you remember something seemingly harmless abut say a program you used to be in, but then the fun really starts when you remember how you were treated there.
I hate the holidays. I don’t like to celebrate anything really. What I hate is having to be social when I’d rather be in bed. I hate things like July 4th and new years because no one cares enough to invite me to things beforehand and when
I’m the person that everyone is uncomfortable around so they avoid me. Hell, sometimes I want to say something nice but I don’t because no matter what I have to say is automatically invalidated because it came from me, and sometimes it seems
Had a good night!! Watched Bleach and played perfect dark then watched the pilot of Macgyver tonight with my best friend!!!
So on top of stapling my finger, the spring let go while I was trying to unjam it and launched an entire stick of staples towards my coworkers. All I could say about it was “stapler malfunction” while they glared at me disapprovingly.
therosebell: bronzebasilisk: hyperscraps: vashito: I don’t have chronic pain but this artwork is so nice to look at *^* Just because we’re not writhing on the floor doesn’t mean we’re not hurting. We’ve just gotten really good at hiding
I feel like shit today. I also havent been productive at work because I’ve been spending so much time hiding in the bathroom. No one would notice any difference in workload if I didn’t go in, and then they would realize how incompetent and
Its my own damn fauld I almost flipped the fuck out
Its almost like people that follow me dont realize that I;m a creepy 26 year old that has an unhealthy obsession with Ash Ketchum and that I literally look like the bad guy from Men in Black 3.
Dispite the back pain its an ok day so far! !!
I’m a pice of shit because I just realized that I've been blowing my best friend off for at least the last two weeks or more. He lives two houses away. Even though I’ve been working 6 day weeks and have been in no shape for any sort of human
I’d probably say that I’’m the cliche that I'm “a danger to myself and others”, but I feel more like I’m just a danger to others? Sometimes I feel like Im just a bad person to be around.
Yeah, I got hit in the face with a softball during gym when I was 10 in a program, and I was later punished “refusal to participate” or something like that because I was afraid to play anymore.
I just popped my back like 3309342 times and it feels AWESOME!!! I know that it will be back to excruciating pain again tomorrow, but I can at least enjoy a half hour of relief, and by relief I mean the pain has come down from 7 to 1 ½ so I’m
Its 23 degrees and I’m in bed on my phone next to an open window because whatevers being cooked downstairs the smell is making its way through my closed door and making me sick and I haven’t been able to sleep for hours because of it.
Also, up until yesterday I’ve been working close to 50 hours a week, worked around and operated dangerous machinery while in a dangerously exhausted and compromised state, and may have allegedly done serious damage to the environment.
Aparently theres something wrong with one of our cats. Hes trying to pee on everything and leaving drips everywhere. My mom wants me to go with her to take him to the vet hospital
I hate the smell of rubbing alcohol and I hate needles.
I shoudn’t be awake right now. I have to run my errands because I forgot to do them on thursday, and I’ll have to snowblow the driveway before I go anywhere tomorrow. I havent really been keen on waking up with plushies in bed with me (I
That moment when you go to reblog a post that you thought of a funny comment to add to… …and the moment afterward when you close that tab because you realize how stupid your comment was.
icalled12times: I saw a graphic for this floating around, but the graphic wasn’t very high-quality. I thought it was a nice idea and that maybe making a better quality graphic would help spread it around. Please reblog! January 10th is only five days
I like to sometimes think that I would help out people if they were ever in mortal danger, but then I remember the time I tried to lock my best friend out of his own house when we were being chased my a bear.
Sometimes I have the cognitive ability of a 7 year old. Things just don’t make sense when they get said to me, and people get offended by it when I don’t understand. Likewise I also get frustrated when I can’t describe something right
Fuck, all I have to do is send messages to a couple companies asking about stuff I need to buy but I cant find the right thing I need and I don’t know how to say what I need without feeling really stupid
I just want to be numb forever. I want to stop caring about everything. I stopped being happy when I started caring about people and trying to make friends with them. Its also kinda sad that the fact that knowing that people care about my well being is
I hate how I almost always feel worthless and less important. That’s why I don’t really talk much. It’s more along the lines of “they have friends that are better and are actually fun to be around” vs me that tends to just make most people
I risked my safety and the safety of a lot of people yesterday. For about ๖. Only one person actually noticed how sick I was/am and was overly concerned en en though my dizziness wasn’t that bad. I probably shouldn’t have gone to work, but tbh
I hate it when my kitty sneaks up on me when I’m downstairs filling up my water bottle because to suddenly have something grab your leg and tap you on the butt is not exactly calming. Then I feel guilty afterwards when I scare him away :(
