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I’m considering doing a panel next year for AnimeNEXT? I plan on it being about fanfiction tropes and consent. I just felt like there wasn’t anything about it on the panel schedule and I think that’s a unifying thing in a LOT of
Graham wants me to sing/write lyrics for his chiptunes band thing. Maybe I can finally make the Don’t Even Look at Me EP a reality.
I keep wanting to reblog those “imagine your icon” things, because imagining it with Titan Eren is hilarious. Like… imagine if your icon was who you are inside. Yes. That’s exactly what I am. A big sexy titan.
I know good things are going to happen in the fall but what’s the point in thinking about that if I don’t even think I’m going to make it through the weekend?
chriscappuccino: Aaaaa I had a really good time with Donnie and later Jess and Graham today!! We talked endlessly about titans and various other things, but mostly titans, and we decided that there needs to be a high school AU in which there’s a dance,
tagath: I had a long dream about “attack on titan" where my brain basically reinvented the whole thing from what I had seen on tumblr I am more than a little angry that I dreamt about a show I don’t watch Couldn’t I dream of dwarves and elves
tagath: gandalfexmachina: tagath: I had a long dream about “attack on titan" where my brain basically reinvented the whole thing from what I had seen on tumblr I am more than a little angry that I dreamt about a show I don’t watch Couldn’t
tmi/sex talk under the cut I’ve been trying to make sense of my voice in a trans* way recently. A good thing about it is that it’s not nearly as high as I assumed it was (a lot of my friends impersonate me having a much higher voice and I
Welp, I did the dropped the cell phone in the toilet thing. So now I have no phone. I don’t really know what to do with all these signs that are basically screaming YOU SHOULDN’T BE AROUND, GIVE UP, YOU INADEQUATE PIECE OF SHIT.
Here’s the thing. I keep getting worse and worse from my depressive episodes. I’ve tried therapy on two separate occasions and they were disasters (actually got worse/relapsed/etc) during them. And I figured out a way to go through my
tw: disordered eating??? I did some pretty solid adult things today! Like sent out emails! And did all the dishes that were backed up! But now I’m kind of staring at the pantry and the fridge drawing a blank. I have never really been good at
breast pain blogging This thing which I’m now really convinced is a megacyst hurt even more when I woke up today. I’m sure it has to do with me poking at it all evening. Although the more I think about it, the more I realize that this is
angry post I think what really hurts me about this whole fucking thing is just… ok. So I never attempted suicide far enough that I needed to be hospitalized for it. Should I have? Probably. But just… if you know someone is struggling,
The really skittish kitty keeps doing the thing where she climbs on the lower parts of the chair to shove her face into my lap. Apparently, this means that she wants affection. I’m still really surprised that I am in this cat’s comfort zone
I’m just… ahhh. How do you walk away from something, from someone that has had so much control over your life? She’s been a part of it since SIXTH GRADE. And now I’m a grad student looking back on all the shitty things that
This school should hire me so I can have enough money to buy silly things like Oogami Sakura cell phone straps.
Also, I’m sorry I’m being kind of cranky. That cyst on my chest is inflamed again and it’s aching. It seems like this is going to become a Thing every time I’m nearing my period I guess. How swell.
I’m catching up. Or trying to. On the internet now that I am done with the comic con of new york. Wow Jean/armin is becoming more of a thing? Not nobody seems to be using my perfect headcanon about Eren and armin being poly so whatever.
Uhhhhhh……… nevermind on the whole moving back into my apartment thing. It sounds like I’ve been kicked out. Sooooooo………… looks like I’m kind of homeless right now. But still paying rent.
Okay doing this now, so I can budget the next few months properly: who here wants to exchange gifts and/or cards for the holiday season? The only thing I ask is if we’re mutual followers, so I can properly write you a card. Even if you’ve
I’m gonna cry bc all of you are great. thank you for the bday wishes and drabbles and the like. You made this whole being snowed in thing pretty nice.
dmab tauriel let’s make it a thing, followers
I need someone who’s willing to be my mentor in education with regards toward being a nonbinary, queer, poly individual in a system that isn’t really into any of those things. like how do you exist with all of this as a part of you without
frick apparently graham and i have been together long enough that family members are giving each other gifts? aaaaaAAAAAA. like his aunt got me something. why i’m a bean why do people get me things.
so ready for 2013 to be over. there were some great things that happened during it, but jeez, too many lost friendships, depressive episodes, and being kicked out of my fucking apartment.
i really want to resurrect my monster babes in college web comic idea, if only to detail the story about the cat monster babe and sea monster babe that try to make the whole one of them being amphibious thing work.
deep down, all I want is a criminal minds beach episode. I don’t care how it would work, I just want it to be a thing.
So I didnt upload my resume and cover letter in time for the thing I’m going to today, because I didnt have wifi and then I was so freaked out from my medical scare I didnt even think about it. So I’m printing copies and hoping it’ll
characters that have actually been through a lot of bullshit emotionally, maybe even physically, but can still be pissbabies over little things are very important to me.
so tempted to do that thing where I miss one of my classes to do work for another class fuckkkkkkkkk
I love how a new marvel movie comes out, I go into it gung ho full of ships and headcanons and all that good stuff, and then the fandom does things that remind me that nope, I’m better off just talking to my friends about stuff and keeping it to
I think I just implied that Maeve is trans. Well, it wouldn’t be a bad thing.
I know I just woke up from a way too long nap, but I’ve just felt like the past week or so I have a weird… haze…? around me. I don’t really feel things correctly. Like I have to put thought into feeling certain emotions and
today is just not a good day. i really shouldn’t be home alone. so if someone wants to keep me company or like. send me nice things. ro whatever. that’d be really appreciated.
I got two and a half things I want to write rn but I can’t decide which I have too many underappreciated nerds and their jock boyfriends to write about
ahhh btw everyone! I am going to be in Maine from tomorrow until Tuesday. I can finally check this state off of my list! And maybe see seals and lobsters idk. SO! If you want to contact me, feel free to message me or put things in my tracked tag.
the thing with what’s kind of destroying me from the inside out is that it’s pretty triggering so I don’t want to just be like HEY FRIEND GUESS WHAT’S MAKING ME FEEL LIKE A DISGUSTING HUMAN BEING? but at the same time I am hurting
I have to try and get nycc passes at noon uuuuuuugh. The thing is I might get passes from a friend that is working a booth there, but it’s not confirmed and I might qualify for a professional pass, but I can’t apply for it until I actually
the scent of patchouli makes me think of christmas and it’s weirdly distressing to me bc I don’t know if this is a common thing with people? I keep trying to look up “patchouli christmas” but it turns out a book was basically
I did that thing again where I started looking up Alexander Hamilton/John Laurens stuff OH NO THIS IS SO BAD I HAVE AN APARTMENT I SHOULD BE STRAIGHTENING UP.
good news is that I don’t feel as bad as I did yesterday! I have a cough that isn’t cute, but my brain is doing much better (namely that I can spell things without having to try three times). so that’s good. I’m going to
Ugh there’s things I should be doing in this Starbucks until my staff meeting but I WANT TO READ FANFIC UGH
I see u when yr liking things in a fandom yr curious about. I know when yr awake because I get a notification I guess.
I am soooo not an elf. I’m negative elf. I put on elf ears to see how I’d look and you know what I looked like? spock. not that looking like spock is a bad thing, but it wasn’t what I was going for. I am forever a hobbit/dwarf
I’m super lonely tonight so if you’re around now is the time to chat whooooo jk that implies that I’m worth being talked to. shit sorry my brain is doing its shitty thing.
agenderreid: I just got into bad mode bc I can’t process information correctly while trying to do research for my Fantasy team mental illness is hell why the fuck do little things like this set me off why can’t I be normal for five seconds I’m
the only positive thing about today was that I accidentally spilled star-shaped glitter on myself
also! mutuals! if you want to be in touch, you’re always free to ask me for things like twitter (even tho that’s shitposting/talking about my fic central), snapchat, and other forms of social media. I’m really trying to get better
another two hour drive hhhhhhh please send me nice things bc I am just. not doing great rn.
ugh I looked up those skater dresses and I really want this one but I’m SO BAD at getting things for myself that aren’t, like. anime figures. hhhhhh.
Staying after school for extra help aka please send me nice things bc nobody is going to show and I will have milled around Starbucks for two hours for nothing. Also the state wants to come to visit once a month and I’m freaking the fuck out.
gandalfexmachina: Staying after school for extra help aka please send me nice things bc nobody is going to show and I will have milled around Starbucks for two hours for nothing. Also the state wants to come to visit once a month and I’m freaking the
I forgot to hit anon and accidentally revealed myself as someone’s secret santa oh my fucking God I’m so embarrassed I am preconditioned to never send things anonymously I fucked up I fucked up
a weird thing that probably shouldn’t bother me at 24 years of age: I am incapable of analyzing myself enough to figure out which fictional characters I’m like. Other than Hanji, I’ve never really seen a fictional character and went
godddd I want to write right now, but Black Me Out is way too upbeat of a fic to work on it (esp at the part I’m at). I might expand a self harm headcanon thing instead, because it was super cathartic yesterday. If you have any kinda depressing
I feel a lot better now that I know that I’m taking the day off. I mean, things are still really fucked up. I feel kind of weird and hollow and all that. But I don’t have a sense of dread that is overwhelmingly powerful. So there’s
godDAMMIT I was drawing and all was well but all of a sudden my hands were shaking and I was beginning to feel things crawling under my skin and I was lik e???? what the what and then I remembered I had coffee a little while a go. god dammit. I just
hmmmm what’s a free thing I can download for arting purposes???? I wanna draw but I’m tiny and inept at that stuff.
I did it I drew my first digital thing (points at icon emphatically)
in kind of cool news, we got a new principal a few days ago. we’ve talked a few times and as I zipped into his office today, he noted that I reminded him of a former student. I asked him if it was a good thing and he said “yes, absolutely.
