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coyocoyo: The Bully This comic I made over a year ago, but I’ve touched it up since and I’m happy to share it on tumblr C: while I’ve improved immensely since I made this, I’m still really proud of myself for making it. ps. this was during a
dacommissioner2k15: raimix3q2: @shitpost-senpai @trilllizard666 @servals-dank-meme-machine @the-man-who-sold-za-warudo @commanderdouche I KEEP SCREAMING BUT GOD WON’T ANSWER Space Ghost one and this one of Berserk… Where the best. I cannot
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Man…What the fuck did I do in a past life to deserve being so fat and uglyDid I kill someone? what gives??Even if I lost weight Im still fucking ugly.How can people on this site take pictures of themselves and say “oh Im ugly“?I get a mood
I accidentally dropped my phone on top of my cell phone charm and it split in half. RIP Barnaby logo
I’m seeing Star Trek tonight. I’m trying to be more excited about it, but it’s difficult. There’s so many issues taking place and I want to talk about it critically, but nobody wants to with me. I also never got out of the funk
A whole bunch of T&B people have been unfollowing me recently. I don’t think I can be too surprised? I mean, I like anime, but I don’t blog it as much as others. But I try to tag everything and make it so that people don’t have
I just looked at a huge pile of dishes and actually felt my knees shake. Also, being home alone was the last thing I needed today. If I make it through this day unscathed, it’s going to be really impressive.
I did this really ugly thing all day when I kind of shook my phone periodically and hoped to magically hear from people. I’ve also decided to stop looking at Facebook, because it’s either going to tell me 1. no one I’m friends with gives
I hate how lonely I feel. Sometimes I have this phantom need to text her something, like we used to. A line of dialogue someone said or a bad joke. Because once upon a time I had that with her. But I need to smack my hand away or tell myself to fucking
it’s just like…………………. inevitably I am thinking about the friend I had a falling out with and just……….. maybe she’s right and I’m a piece of shit that will never,
“my life has been pleasant right now. i don’t feel like discussing this.” hah hahah fuck you I just said a long string of slurs and it’s so fucking UGLY AND I HATE IT I HATE HER and honestly I really don’t feel comfortable
Today was one of those days I really needed somebody. Guess what? I didn’t get it. So… backing away from life and giving up. yeah.
I’ve either been cut out of people’s lives or haven’t had messages responded to for the past few weeks about the subject. I guess everyone decided the other person was more worth the investment. Just… I just want this to end.
i want to relapse haaaaaaaaah i mean i haven’t hit this point really during the entirety of this horrible ordeal but I’M AT THIS POINT NOW.
I got no work done this weekend because of mental health stuff. Also at this rate I’m not going to live long enough to enjoy my makeup purchases so what’s the point?
I’m not doing too well right now (obviously) I don’t even know what to ask for anymore someone please just rid me of this shitty horrible life
a year ago I had a home full of people I cared about and who I really, truly thought cared about me, too. now I can’t stay in my own apartment, because I don’t feel safe and the people who live there don’t really care to make me feel
I think I’m ready for this three month long cry for help to be over. I cried. No one answered. I think it’s time to leave, because no matter how many times I scream and cry that I need someone, that I’m running out of time, I don’t
everything is awful and I have 0 reasons to wake up tomorrow and I’m sick and fucking tired of doing hour long drives to and from the school I’m at and I’m fucked.
oh and if this one subletter is as good as it gets, I’m still going to have to pay partial rent for the other place the rest of the lease. i’m just i’m done. yeah. it’s over.
oh yes yes totally want to be alive when the housemate that kicked me out is saying WE WON’T APPROVE OF ANY NEW SUBLETTERS UNTIL WE INTERVIEW THEM OK I just… I give up. no one with the power to make my life better is ACTUALLY GOING TO
Rly nervous my so is visiting because jokes on them I’m a piece of shit that sleeps way too early that has zero game whatsoever.
i matter so little to some of my exfriends that they don’t even have me on facebook anymore. I’m not even worth someone trying to passively check up on. I know that they’ve been shitty to me. I know that they will probably never speak
why am I watching Silver Linings Playbook? Why do I want to make myself feel terrible about the portrayal of mental illness in film? Also, the main character being a teacher who was trying to manage an undiagnosed mental illness is way too real for
I saw a picture of my ex-housemate on instagram and it was sucha fucking kick in the teeth for me. there are people in the world that think she’s great. there are people in the world that think she’s nice. there are people in the world that
still really fucked up over seeing a picture of an ex friend on Instagram two days ago ………………………………………….. god bless
my professor accepted my fumbling apology, so there is that. he says that I’m a great contributor and will continue to be, regardless of things like this. so that’s comforting.
Im so fucked up and lonely that I’m getting upset over too cute because it features the breed of dog an (ex?) Friend owns.
I hate that I keep handing in things late, because I’m a mentally ill piece of shit. I want to do things on time. I want to be a good student. But it’ll be a few hours before the assignment is due and I’ll dissociate or I’ll
I’m so resentful of people who can just take a day off my brain is just constantly processing information even when I try to rest my brain is going “you’re resting resting reSTING WHY ARE YOU RESTING 3289472394UWQIEHSKFH” and I
hums softly and tries to think of gentle headcanons because fuck fuck fuck I can’t do this I can’t be a person I’m trying to do schoolwork and I’m freaking out and I just want to sleep forever, because why bother
I’m crying, because I got a B+ in a class and I’m a piece of shit 1) because I couldn’t get that 4.0 I wanted and 2) because I’m crying over getting a B+
Sees own gender identity being mocked in someone’s mish mosh of ~tumblr sj bullshit identities~ Mmmm… I wonder… if they knew… I identified as such?????
this is so silly but I broke out kind of bad and I’m really upset about it? I haven’t changed anything in my makeup routine and the only theory I can come up with is that the zits line up with where I rest the phone against my face when
I feel so terrible about how cagey and guarded I’ve become. I should be texting people, arranging to meet with people, hell, actually logging on to Skype. Something. But. the thought of opening up to people is very daunting for me at this
nsfw text, mentioned after effects of assault etc I hate feeling broken. and there’s not really a reason to feel broken, but I still do. even having sex now is me going “I don’t react how I used to I don’t feel the way I used
I just had this wave of “I want to be a little bit normal goddammit!!!!!!!” today and oof I haven’t felt like that since high school.
still ffelin’ not great mmmmaaaaaaa fuckkkkkkkk I just keep thinking about all the things I can’t do, because of my brain, and that’s not fun at all.
talks about car accidents and fatalities, so like. don’t look at this post if that triggers you pls. hhhhhh just read a post about a person dying in a fatal car accident and a few weeks ago one of the teachers at my friend’s schools died
this is also probably working in tandem with the fact that I just slumped really fucking bad right now and I don’t even know how to cope hah hah so of course I’m going to just. be terrible and a mess. but also have it attack the parts
fitting the profile of bpd ok seeing very relatable posts about bpd ya reblogging/liking them bc they’re relatable ??????
talks about #assault/exes I get so stressed out when I see a person like a whole bunch of my shit in a row. which is absolutely ridiculous. and yet I still get really stressed out, because it’s what they did and they assaulted me and the past
hhhhhh I’m really freaking out rn fuuuuck turns out my ex-best friend is moving back to her parent’s place? which is like. within walking distance of the school I work at. and I’m just. feeling physically ill thinking about it.
I think what really sucked about this year for me, aside from the horrible current events, is that I did so much I should be proud of. I completed my master’s, survived going on interviews, and I got a teaching job. But no! This is the year
lmao mental illness confession: I’ve laid in my bed at random intervals of the day every day for 1-2 hours, because I don’t want to live and I am losing my ability to deal with that fact
Lmao did that whole wreckless driving with internal monologue of if I die who cares today I wish I could have stayed home.
I’m at this point where I kind of want to write something ~inspired by my recent events, but to be honest? this is hell. this is absolutely horrible. I don’t even want to put a fictional character through what I’m going through
so basically I had a panic attack earlier today and almost had one during dinner. the rest of the time I just felt bad/ill/stressed/panicked/whatever the fuck. I’m just. really freaked out and upset. because it was so long since I had physical
I’ve actually been doing pretty well the past few weeks, probably because I’ve been doing a lot of visiting and all that. but this morning I had my throat catch and I remembered what I found out a few weeks ago and just. things felt weird.
everything is awful and it’s not even my profession life or anything like that! I’m just a hideous self destructive piece of shit who is legitimately damaged goods this is terrible I am terrible fuck!!!!!!
also I kind of entirely dissociated while running homeroom yesterday? I didn’t realize it until kids pointed it out. I’m actually really scared about the New and Weird things my brain comes up with.
watching hq keeps being hard sometimes and I don’t even know why. I get scared of liking the same ship or character as my ex, which is ridiculous. but at the same time it’s too close for me. on the bright side, it sounds like they didn’t
I’m trying to figure out if I should drop hq bc it makes me feel like shit. I actually got upset that my partner put it on without asking me today, bc I keep getting freaked out of having any mutual interest as my ex. and it’s ridiculous,
I am going through a wave of like. really bad thoughts. and you’d think after dealing with this shit for basically my whole life, i’d be better at handling it, but I’m not. I’m not even sure what to ask for, even. I’m sorry.
post-con depression aka I met a lot of people this weekend and I’m so scared that I made bad iimpressions, because I’m a weird gay baby.
I’ve been sitting around the past hour unable to pull myself out of the dream I woke up from and it’s just. bad. I’m checking phone conversations to try and figure out if I sent them or they happened in the dream.I also just kind
Ah so I’ve felt some degree of suicidal for two weeks now and there was also the meltdown two or so weeks ago and I’m beginning to get worried like… Hah hah… This isn’t ending what the fuck do I do.
I’m sorry I haven’t been talking much. I still want to die and I’m tired of saying that and not hearing much in response. I’m just. tired.
gulps nervouslyI’m having difficulty trusting my partner rn because they haven’t been around all week (like. they’re saying things and I’m like ?????? yeah ok you’re lying. you don’t care. you fucking left me. and I know some of it it is Brains
