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i matter so little to some of my exfriends that they don’t even have me on facebook anymore. I’m not even worth someone trying to passively check up on. I know that they’ve been shitty to me. I know that they will probably never speak
where’s the point where I lose so many people that I just become a robot? it’ll make things a lot easier.
also I forgot my headphones today and the bus I was on was making this weird screeching noise so I curled up against the window and covered my ears hoping no one would notice I was having a mini meltdown. on one hand, I’m glad I’m more aware
life is great there’s flyers all over campus for an event featuring pictures of the housemate that drove me out of my old apartment. I feel so wonderful about being alive you don’t even know………….
i had a group project that i was supposed to present with people from the dance program on wednesday and LO AND BEHOLD THEY DROPPED OUT THIS WEEKEND, BECAUSE THE CONTENT WAS TOO DIFFICULT FOR THEM. So now I’m just really confused, having intense
Im so fucked up and lonely that I’m getting upset over too cute because it features the breed of dog an (ex?) Friend owns.
i can’t stop thinking about relapsing rn this is so great what’s the point I’m already dead whether my body is sick or I’m just fucked up whateverrrrr
I’m so resentful of people who can just take a day off my brain is just constantly processing information even when I try to rest my brain is going “you’re resting resting reSTING WHY ARE YOU RESTING 3289472394UWQIEHSKFH” and I
took awhile but I can finally initiate touching, which is cool. I’m still not totally comfy being close to people that aren’t my SO at the moment, because when people touch me I get this weird burning sensation where they touch me. It’s
cm spoilers god at one point after the episode I was sobbing, then laughing at myself for sobbing, while I was hissing, “everyone leaves him” now I realize why I connect to reid so much because everyone leaves fuck
nothing ignore this I guess five months ago I loved someone so much I spent money I didn’t have to go across the country and visit them now they’re essentially a stranger to me I just feel like I am such a horrible person everyone will leave
this is so silly but I broke out kind of bad and I’m really upset about it? I haven’t changed anything in my makeup routine and the only theory I can come up with is that the zits line up with where I rest the phone against my face when
I’m not doing well and I know the logical step is “talk to someone,” but I’m so scared to let someone in. the people i’ve let in have assaulted me and abandoned me and assumed I was too much trouble and I don’t know
I feel so terrible about how cagey and guarded I’ve become. I should be texting people, arranging to meet with people, hell, actually logging on to Skype. Something. But. the thought of opening up to people is very daunting for me at this
I’m putting so much heart and soul into this fic and it’s probably going to get like three kudos fuck
talks about car accidents and fatalities, so like. don’t look at this post if that triggers you pls. hhhhhh just read a post about a person dying in a fatal car accident and a few weeks ago one of the teachers at my friend’s schools died
this is also probably working in tandem with the fact that I just slumped really fucking bad right now and I don’t even know how to cope hah hah so of course I’m going to just. be terrible and a mess. but also have it attack the parts
talks about #assault/exes I get so stressed out when I see a person like a whole bunch of my shit in a row. which is absolutely ridiculous. and yet I still get really stressed out, because it’s what they did and they assaulted me and the past
I love going through the t*es le*hes tag but it’s also making me nostalgic for when I was in a poly relationship uuuugh this is so ridiculous I have other poly ships, too, but this one is hitting me in that way what the heck
I’m realizing how inadequate I am at my job, because it’s part-time. I can’t support my students at the capacity I want to and I’m just so fucking pissed off. I hate that I’m not working at the level I want to. I hate
I think what really sucked about this year for me, aside from the horrible current events, is that I did so much I should be proud of. I completed my master’s, survived going on interviews, and I got a teaching job. But no! This is the year
I’m at a point where I want to want to be alive? I have kids to look after, a partner to watch come into their own, a birthday to celebrate, fics to finish, cons to go to stuff to do. But it never feels worth it enough and I feel so terrible
Today has not been a good day then again I don’t really have good days so. Its whatever I guess.
ah so now I’m remembering how this friend would touch me without my consent repeatedly and I didn’t want to tell her to stop, because I knew touching people was a big deal for her. and how I’d feel the same burning sensation from it
I know this shouldn’t be an indicator of how ~depressed I am right now, but I tried to take a shower and like ~cleanse myself or whatever and I was so upset I just kind of stood in there with a chunk of my hair still covered in shampoo for a few
I’m so discouraged by what I’ve heard about the new h*bbit movie I might go back to agenderreid way earlier than I anticipated…
I’m getting bad brains rn and I don’t know what to do about it anymore I’m so tired please kill me
people are all talking at the same time and I’m getting the lightheaded shitty feeling again. oh my god why is the holidays so hazardous to my mental health?
I was going to make a post and go “hm, why is it that my mental illness has gotten so horrible the past few weeks?” bc I’ve been having a lot more hallucination-y stuff and being absolutely convinced that I was not real/people hate me,
demigirljoseph: I’m trying to watch Haikyu!! But its also making me think of my ex so its kind of making me feel like shit… lmao I can’t stop getting hung up about this. why the fuck did my ex assault me I just wanted to watch an innocent
I feel so shitty over this bullshit what the fuck I just want to be normal for one fucking second
post-con depression aka I met a lot of people this weekend and I’m so scared that I made bad iimpressions, because I’m a weird gay baby.
turns out one of the cylinders in my engine misfired. it really had nothing to do with the snow. so it’s either get a new engine, or fix it for more than the price of an engine.the biggest problem with all this is that I literally don’t have
I think the reason why I don’t want to be alive anymore is because I don’t want to be a victim of abuse anymore. I’m so tired of reacting to things, because of my past abuse. I’m tired of not being able to handle people raising
I’m probably having such a shit time because I’m nearing the date that I was going to attempt one year and it’s been officially a year since I was assaulted…but like. I’m going to be home alone during all this, so this is getting even worse.
I can’t even ask someone to talk to me right now saying anything is so hard right now.I speak all the time at work and i work with my kids as best as I can and now I’m here and I just. feel my throat closing up and I want to cry.
I know it doesn’t mean much, but I’m trying to wrap my head around the fact that not only did I, the queer teacher, got fired today, but so did the math teacher, who’s the only person who isn’t a white person on our faculty. And just. I KNOW
i got a rejecting via email. it was a reply to an email I sent about three weeks ago.I’m just. getting tired. so tired. I’ve been on a ton of interviews and I keep getting close. I end up down to five people, fuck, down to two people, and I can’t
all my birthday reiterated to me is how unimportant I am and how so many people who used to be my friends don’t give a shit and I just. feel like I don’t belong in the world and I’m better off dead ah hah.
And I'm so fucking beautiful I can't stand it
spillywolf: Me: okay, we need to eat and take a shower My brain: acknowledged Me: …… so uh why aren’t we doing that My brain: I acknowledged it what more can I do
sad machine
So sad :(
precumming: how do you even let this happen….
SO SAD TO HEAR LOUISE FROM STREET OUTLAWS PASSED
you used to call me on your snail phone
::🥵🥵🥵So sad I’ll never get to eat myself out 😢
So, my wine is over.Now I need Asks.
赨,000,000,000 spent after the attacks 1,506,124 tonnes of debris removed from the site 3,051 children lost a parent 2,819 lives were taken in the attacks 1,609 people lost their wife/husband/boyfriend/girlfriend 99 days the buildings continued
sad emoji af
bearboyhampton: I need these outfits ASAP :| Why must homosexuals ruin everything?
hey everyone, here’s a photo of me at the vaccines’ concert last night!!!! so much fun!
