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how do you deal with being haunted constantly like this? i don’t feel safe wandering around on campus unless i’m with someone. and now i turn my head and everywhere i look her image is just every fucking where. i don’t know hat to do
going to see kyary in concert tomorrow and I should be excited, but I’m too busy having anxiety about seeing my ex housemate yayyyyyy
I’m not even triggered over this btw. If that makes anyone feel better. I’m just… very upset. It reminds me about how unsafe I can be if I talk about my experiences with SI with the wrong people. And I know Morgan wouldn’t
hums softly and tries to think of gentle headcanons because fuck fuck fuck I can’t do this I can’t be a person I’m trying to do schoolwork and I’m freaking out and I just want to sleep forever, because why bother
took awhile but I can finally initiate touching, which is cool. I’m still not totally comfy being close to people that aren’t my SO at the moment, because when people touch me I get this weird burning sensation where they touch me. It’s
ahhh this is so fucking ridiculous I went through so much fucking shit and I am graduating and it’s going to be like a 3.8 or some shit this is great but no my brain is not able to look past this
Sees own gender identity being mocked in someone’s mish mosh of ~tumblr sj bullshit identities~ Mmmm… I wonder… if they knew… I identified as such?????
I feel so terrible about how cagey and guarded I’ve become. I should be texting people, arranging to meet with people, hell, actually logging on to Skype. Something. But. the thought of opening up to people is very daunting for me at this
I just had this wave of “I want to be a little bit normal goddammit!!!!!!!” today and oof I haven’t felt like that since high school.
the weather’s getting colder and all I can think about is how this time, last year, I had two pairs of hands. two bodies. two directions of kind words being able to hold me in place. I miss the sensations, but I will not miss you. I will still
this is also probably working in tandem with the fact that I just slumped really fucking bad right now and I don’t even know how to cope hah hah so of course I’m going to just. be terrible and a mess. but also have it attack the parts
I think what really sucked about this year for me, aside from the horrible current events, is that I did so much I should be proud of. I completed my master’s, survived going on interviews, and I got a teaching job. But no! This is the year
I actually have a meeting tomorrow morning with a parent, which I was discouraged enough over, because it is supposed to be done in 15 minutes and four teachers are supposed to speak during it. but now I’m like. not even interested in existing
I’m at a point where I want to want to be alive? I have kids to look after, a partner to watch come into their own, a birthday to celebrate, fics to finish, cons to go to stuff to do. But it never feels worth it enough and I feel so terrible
lmao why am I trying to go out tonight I really just want to curl up and cry or be self destructive, because I can’t produce anger right now. I’m not angry. I don’t really feel anything and that’s usually the sign that I’m
I know this shouldn’t be an indicator of how ~depressed I am right now, but I tried to take a shower and like ~cleanse myself or whatever and I was so upset I just kind of stood in there with a chunk of my hair still covered in shampoo for a few
I’m at this point where I kind of want to write something ~inspired by my recent events, but to be honest? this is hell. this is absolutely horrible. I don’t even want to put a fictional character through what I’m going through
I was going to make a post and go “hm, why is it that my mental illness has gotten so horrible the past few weeks?” bc I’ve been having a lot more hallucination-y stuff and being absolutely convinced that I was not real/people hate me,
that cm episode is still fucking me up ah hah I get that it’s totally normal and okay to be triggered and yet I still feel bad
watching hq keeps being hard sometimes and I don’t even know why. I get scared of liking the same ship or character as my ex, which is ridiculous. but at the same time it’s too close for me. on the bright side, it sounds like they didn’t
I feel so shitty over this bullshit what the fuck I just want to be normal for one fucking second
I am going through a wave of like. really bad thoughts. and you’d think after dealing with this shit for basically my whole life, i’d be better at handling it, but I’m not. I’m not even sure what to ask for, even. I’m sorry.
things are getting even worse? they can’t get the pipes to stop freezing. my room isn’t set to be fixed until “sometime next week.” it’s very possible, considering the current cold weather, we will get more pipes breaking
I slept on it and to be frank, I never want to speak to my parents ever again.I really don’t see the point. I should definitely wait until I have a full time job before I do anything permanent, but… what’s really stopping me, other
I had a day off from feeling intensely suicidal and then I woke up and was just like wow fuck being alive amirite!!!!please kill me I can’t do this anymore lmao!
I’m probably having such a shit time because I’m nearing the date that I was going to attempt one year and it’s been officially a year since I was assaulted…but like. I’m going to be home alone during all this, so this is getting even worse.
lmao I’m finally home alone and I just feel all used up. I just feel like there is nothing good about me anymore. it’s been destroyed by my assault but let’s be real, after the sexual abuse it probably wasn’t there in the ifrst place.I’m pretty
uuugh tmi nsfw post about gender dysphoria………….last night gwyn was like “oh yeah remember when I used to be able to touch your breasts and nearly get you off?” last night, adding “you know… before you really used
all my birthday reiterated to me is how unimportant I am and how so many people who used to be my friends don’t give a shit and I just. feel like I don’t belong in the world and I’m better off dead ah hah.
bisexualhamilton: We’re putting Bifur to sleep tonight. He’s miserable and that’s when I said I’d let him go. I’m going to be a wreck the next few days. I’m sorry. He’s passed away. Thank you for all the support.
shadowedhills: Someone on Twitter pointed out that the worst part of the year of deaths is not simply that we’ve lost celebrities, but that we’ve lost a whole group of the celebrities who helped an entire generation realize that being different was
futureless:i be in my own head fighting for my life
blankspace17:The reoccurring theme of being unwanted in your childhood and seeing yourself as some kind of monster and how you feel like you have to move mountains to get people to like you
robotsandsodapop replied to your post: Why am I starting to feel sad for a ta…i think it’s dying
be curious. not judgmental.
Never to be found
xxjustsomebloggerxx: thegoddamazon: wifelife: Girls, when you’re feeling sad, just remember: a vagina can go back to it’s original size after taking something 20x its size a penis will end up looking like an empty potato sack that’s been run
sad-ie: i hope this summer is gay as fuck. gonna get so fucking gay.
"Life is cruel. Why should the afterlife be any different?
alicat2911: northernsugar: rosewaterofficial: night time would be so beautiful and fun if all men had a curfew Oh my god my mind runs wild thinking of all the things I’d do in the dark if there were no men out after 9. I would wear a pretty dress
This dog will be killed… Seems he knows it.
Being a voice actor is hard(depending on your script in this case)….meh
It fucking drives me nuts sometimes how stubborn Nick is. Even if I wasn’t moody or bitchy tonight I would still be this mad. He pulled a muscle in his back last night and won’t do anything to help. He won’t listen to me about medicine
nothingtokillordiefor: unremarkablism: homestuckbodypillow: gogglesthebageleater: whereisyourmoosetonight: c-c-chuck: pixelheroine: phddiscworld: I have to be honest. When I first saw this, I thought it was some generic message thing that had
dookiediamonds:six60d: What the media won’t be showing you.six60d urnasty 666hella 437k wolfxtrip bijoumami ruinedbaby Boost this shit to the maximum.
Where did this go? All these times that created memories. You let me go like I was a broken feather. It was so easy for you. Was I just another piece in your chess game? We used to be mermaid twins and bow we’re like two fish in two seperate oceans.
sad-black: itsqueerlyhalloween: lesbianmccree: boganjunkrat: did you know there are bisexual flowers and they’re perfect it says so right there in my bio textbook i would never lie to you perfect (bisexual) reblog if you are a perfect bisexual,
Be a better you, for you.
Being stood up really sucks a fuck.
sad-lungs: Oh my god
I just want to gain weight and squish and stop being so damn thin please
sad-being: ☹
I wanna be gone
sad-stories-about-us: intelligence is so attractive
Would be so nice if the only thing thick about this body were the thighs. But its not s choice and kow it’s the tummy so it is what it is.
Just wish to be hugged
be gentle
